Pity Party Letra

It's crushin', my guts are on the floor
I said I wanted to get a normal job
I romanticize a life I think I want
Until I'm handin' you the bill
And you say you used to like my band
(You used to like my band)

Is this forever?
Am I a name that you'll remember?
(Will you remember? Will you remember? Will you?)
(Will you remember? Will you remember?)

It's all just a pity party
Oh, what a joy, what a crowd
I'll tell you, "I'm, oh, so sorry"
'Cause it's embarrassing now
It's a parody of pleasurе
Lips big and red like a clown
It's all just a pity party
So cry for me or gеt out

It's crazy how I almost died this year
And now I'm shotgunnin' my very first beer
And dad keeps tellin' me that his end is near
Am I dyin', waitin' for him to die?
I'll starve my body for the seventeenth time
Said I ate my lunch, what's another lie?
I'm over being mediocre
I wanna be smaller and smarter or just okay

Don't need forever (Don't need forever)
(Don't need forever, don't need it, don't need forever)
Am I a name that you'll remember? Mm-mm
(Will you remember? Will you remember? Will you?)
(Will you remember? Will you remember?)

It's all just a pity party
Oh, what a joy, what a crowd
I'll tell you, "I'm, oh, so sorry"
'Cause it's embarrassing now
It's a parody of pleasure
Lips big and red like a clown
It's all just a pity party
So cry for me or get out

Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh-oh
I hate that I keep pushing friends away
I'm all or nothing 'til I'm alone and gray
Am I missin' something? Are you scared to stay?
Can you come over and make me feel like shit?
I promise that I won't cut my arms
'Cause I'm so sick of havin' long sleeves on my body
I'll throw a pity party
Leave your problems at the door, 'cause it's about me

Until it's over (Until it's over)
(Until it's over, until it's over)
And my ex is crying on my shoulder
(On my shoulder, on my shoulder, on my shoulder)

Welcome to my pity party
Gear up, it's gonna get loud
Let's take it to the beginning
This song is embarrassing now