Sock Drawer Blues Letra

But once again it's looks to me like you need to be reminded
About getting me after soccer practice, attach this note to your forehead
But your reflection's been distorted
Ever since you lost sense of what's really important
I've been trapped by myself in this adolescent fortress
What's in store for my mile stones?
How come I think so adult?
Why do I look around and see no one else
Why do they obey like they were born robots
I can't do that, I fight back with glares and sidewalk cracks
Life would be better if I could find this amusing
But every minute another war ends with me losing
And I hate fighting, but I can't tell my relatives about the struggle
They expect me to have a high i.q and bruised knuckles
Look at me...the superglue with disturbing ideas
Determined to let kids everywhere see me survive their fears
Saving my lunch money to buy a bus ticket to the land of no parents
There I will be king and rule the voiceless victims
They can't understand why medicine can't make me whole
And I'm only eight years old and let music heal my soul
Hey hey hey don't you step out of line young man
Look into my eyes; do you even know who I am?

All of this and they have no idea that I exist in this skin
Everything is figured out between my ears and within
I have the answer to humanities aching diseases
I can communicate with all of god's creatures
Yet I still have recess and sit in front of this TV
Waiting for the time to come when I can leave this helpless body
So have your teacher conferences, and find a solution
But I dare you all to find one respected institution
That can understand how I feel, when I'm not even real
And life is judged by their naive views and images they steal
I don't use these ideas that my teachers can't relate to
Because I know there is no science to explain what I've been through
In these short years my existence has become completely bare
From having this curse till the first second I breathed air
I dream in historic episodes that I never forget
As if I'm being trained to understand what hasn't been found yet
All of this while eating breakfast at 7am
With the family surrounding the table ending with amen

They tell me to smile in school pictures
But I have nothing to smile about; my head has been saturated with questions marks and doubts
That will obviously last years past my graduation and no kid will ever feel what I cant get away from
I want simple pleasures in bedtime and playing in the sun
Because I know the universe is coming down on everyone
And mom is late picking me up today, that figures
You know it's embarrassing not to depend on what I have to live with
I wish I could tell them that none of it matters
They believe that dumbing down hides them as really good actors
Playing the role of parents but I see them as temporary teachers
Providing me with reason to hide from the miracle seekers
They use this as a reason to thank god and ask for repentance
Cause I am not the cause for them to finish their sentence
It's the total understanding of all that's existed
My feet walk to a different theme, lifted on a pedestal by invisible strings
The wood sings when I climb the walls, writing the meaning of life in crayons until the night falls
I understand what life is and what it has to offer
But I've been deprived of shape to stand at the altar
My years last three times as long, my body will never catch up to my mind
Act like toys and video games excite me and I play like its all fine
I hear them talking around me as if I don't understand
Using words in-correctly and lying about their fellow man
There's no prophecy in my voice and even if there was I wouldn't care
I've been given the gift of healing but have no one to share with
Prepare for the future as I live the normal routine
Fooling everyone I encounter acting like a human being
Late again she acts like I don't exist, the same routine
And everyday is just like this; from the back seat I tell her it's ok to my hand
But she laughs saying, "honey its ok you wouldn't understand"
It drives me sane to know that if she only realized
That I could see the answer in her tired eyes
Hopefully dad will see it and won't let her slip away
But it destroys me to see this happens and there is nothing I can say
My curse of comprehension in this premature form
With the ability to see damage and hear the silent alarms
All of this while eating dinner every night at 7pm
With the family surrounding the table ending with amen
All of this while eating dinner at 7pm
With the family surrounding the table ending with amen