Pathetic Reasoning Letra

Something you can hold on to
To the years that have gone
It's not your fault that I left
I was ready to leave for so long
I'm sorry I dragged you into my life
Wanted you to be my wife
But I just couldn't take the pain
It all fell like cold steel rain
The pain caused by everything else

This isn't an excuse
I can't express my words of sympathy
Some distant hope in me
That your eyes can see
This was for the best
A eternal rest
But you won't believe that
You shouldn't believe that

I would put on a smile for everyone
But to you I could share my true feelings
Because you took the time to listen
You shared your wisdom and vision
What I'm doing isn't the right decision
It's not fair to you I know
But I'll never really go away
We'll be together again someday
Until than, I'll always be near
Kissing away every tear with invisible lips
Touching your finger tips
Watching over you
Covering your face with kisses like fresh morning dew
Tracing every footstep you make
Monitoring every breath you take
Making sure you wake up a million more days than I will
Keeping you always safe and happy
Because I love you

This isn't an excuse
I can't express my words of sympathy
Some distant hope in me
That your eyes can see
This was for the best
A eternal rest
But you won't believe that
You shouldn't believe that

There was something about your face
Wish I could have kept you in my place
Forever
Sealed every letter with a kiss
and a simple wish
That you'd be mine for all time
Looked into your beautiful brown eyes
My tears I tried to hide
I did and I ended up crying alone
Melted by your smile
Wonder all the while
What do you see in me?
Just what did you see in me?
I'd say you saw true beauty
But that didn't exist in me
Until you created it

This isn't an excuse
I can't express my words of sympathy
Some distant hope in me
That your eyes can see
This was for the best
A eternal rest
But you won't believe that
You shouldn't believe that

You gave me the best days of my life
Made my heart burst with tears of joy
I used to roll the dice
But you got me to stop that
All the times I sat
Sat alone and cried
Oh, I could have died
Yes, I could have died
But you picked me up
You dusted me off
You made me feel better when I would cough
Made me happy everytime I heard your voice
If I had a choice I would have stuck around
Just to hear the sound
Of your footsteps beside mine
When we could be together

This isn't an excuse
I can't express my words of sympathy
Some distant hope in me
That your eyes can see
This was for the best
A eternal rest
But you won't believe that
You shouldn't believe that

I just couldn't hang on
Couldn't be alone
It's not your fault
I just should have flight
A little harder
I was just so weak and tired
Now I'm finally free of hurt and pain
Out of the cold, cold rain
I was wrong
All I can give is this song
I love you Mari
I'm so sorry

This isn't an excuse
I can't express my words of sympathy
Some distant hope in me
That your eyes can see
This was for the best
A eternal rest
But you won't believe that
You shouldn't believe that

I'm so sorry
I'm so sorry
I'm so sorry Mari
I'll always love you