Not Going Back Letra

I’ll feel more solid with myself so I won’t break

All my life I waited for the time
To find a girl just like you
Taken by the good first times
All those sealed lies
I find myself off pattern

Who am I?
Happy as fuck
I don’t like feeling so safe in this matter
Would you mind a little trouble?

I guess it doesn’t matter, I’m not going back (not going back, not going!)
This is my pattern, I am never in control

She’s too fine, it’s time for goodbye
'Cause I don’t wanna let hеr
Realize the pricе to be by my side
Unless she is a crazy ass fool
Who am I to judge her?
I’m just talking about my chaotic pattern
I can’t help it
I guess I feel alive when it hurts me
And it doesn’t matter, I’m not going back (not going back, not going!)
I keep forgetting I am never in control
And there is the issue with my temper again
Will I get a grip and start to change this game?

Running, running away
Can’t pretend to be in love with you the same
Maybe when I’m ok
You’ll be gone and I’ll regret it all the way

But it doesn’t matter, I’m not going back
I’m not going back, I’m not going back
I’m not going

I’m not going
It doesn’t matter, I’m not going back to that