Emilio Rojas

The Cost
I don’t trust like I used to Love like I used to, trip like I used to Just wanna use you and that’s what I’m used to It costs too much and the price goes up Now I been losin’ sleep to my anxiety, this world is full of fiends I’m losin’ friends to my sobriety, no one’s what they seem My girl just spent the whole night cryin’ for me She swear to god I cheat so every time I step outside the crib She beg me not to leave, I know relationships need trust And we don’t got enough, y’all findin’ friends I’m findin’ alibis inside the club, nowadays I’m talkin’ less Every conversation leads to arguments And I don’t care who right or wrong, I just want it all to end I started textin’ other broads again ‘Cause you just been accusin’ me non-stop I might as well do what you thought I did And I been harborin’ resentment so it’s hard to keep a friendship When your heart just isn’t in it girl It’s hard to keep pretendin’, all my dogs is tellin’ me That I should leave like yo, you bad for my career You say you not, I believe you, ain’t no spark And we ain’t fuckin’, we can’t come to an agreement I’m addicted to the drama, I don’t love it but I need it We been screamin’ at each other, other day, I almost hit you Shit, I never thought of touchin’ a woman till I was with you Letras de cancionesAnd that scares me, now I don’t like that side of me If you don’t understand why I been driven How the fuck you plan to ride for me? It been bubblin’ inside of me, I’ve been dealin’ with it quietly Are you strugglin’ with trust ‘cause I don’t struggle with monogamy Truth is, it don’t really make a difference ‘Cause it don’t matter if I’m honest if you still are askin’ questions We been stressin’ over money, we been beefin’ over bills And keepin’ track of who been spendin’ what That petty shit’ll kill ya, I don’t care ‘bout other bitches though I’m grown, I’ve had my fill, I’m tryna lay this foundation That the both of us can build from, we supposed to have some children And adopt your nephew and get a condo in the lower With an Audi and a dog we rescued Sometimes I wish that it could all be simple But ain’t no way that’s gon happen When you think about the shit we been through I don’t trust like I used to Love like I used to, trip like I used to Just wanna use you and that’s what I’m used to It costs too much and the price goes up Your father hit you, shit, you hinted at him touchin’ you It’s probably why you love to call me daddy when I’m fuckin’ you You validate yourself through sexuality and love from dudes And girl, it’s been a while for us so tell me who you runnin’ to You stayin’ late at work and sleepin’ out Got me feelin’ like a guest in my own house Shit, I been sleepin’ on the couch Comin’ home in clothes I know you can’t afford And it’s crazy, who been buyin’ them for you ‘Cause girl, I know it ain’t me Who been takin’ you for dinner? You don’t eat at home Already know the answers to these fuckin’ questions I should leave ‘em ‘lone, shit, I don’t even know you lately You a stranger and the closer that I get to my success The more you change up, you claim you want me winnin’ But with every little victory gon’ come another argument You bitch and talkin’ shit to me You beggin’ me to keep you company in all your misery You tellin’ me you’d die for me but you refuse to live with me See women in my industry and call ‘em like I’m fuckin’ ‘em But I’m just workin’ with these girls You think I fall in love with ‘em And after that shit happen, when I see ‘em, I be duckin’ ‘em ‘Cause I don’t want the drama to catch up with us I know I should be done with us But somethin’ keep me here and keep you with me Conversations give you more ammunition to use against me Try to see you, you won’t let me and you text me like you miss me How the fuck your full lips feel empty when you kiss me? Wish it was different, yeah, but girl, it isn’t And now the one that I can’t live without is not the one I live with I been out with different women every night just to forget it But it don’t feel the same, now somethin’ missin’ Somethin’ feelin’ out of place, ain’t no reachin’ you What the fuck you wantin’ me to do? You’re dead to me Now I ain’t gettin’ over you, I’m grievin’ you You made an enemy of someone who believed in you But somethin’ ‘bout us make me wanna be with you, damn I don’t trust like I used to Love like I used to, trip like I used to Just wanna use you and that’s what I’m used to It costs too much and the price goes up I don’t trust like I used to Love like I used to, trip like I used to Just wanna use you and that’s what I’m used to It costs too much and the price goes up From Letras Mania