Suicide Hotline Letra

i can't stay here and it's colder there
i don't want to look back cause it's gonna hurt
i slice my wrist and it's gonna squirt
for me everybody holds a hate
i get backstabbed and everybody holds the stake
it's no roads to take, i'm in a circle drive
bustin at myself and i'm tryna survive
i'll disappoint you and i will let you down
and i ain't got many homeboys comin around
you don't understand so don't say you do
i swear i'll put a motherfuckin slug in you
i'm the only one, the lonely one, home alone loading a gun thinkin why not?

i got court comin up, i stole a truck
i got a bitch pregnant and i'm broke as fuck
i wanna get high but i got piss test
i'm always first name on top of the shit list
get this, the witch has made my nest
it's permanent nightly visiting nest
it ain't no clothes that i look good in
i'm the mother fuckin big red train that couldn't
i got no family, i stole they shit
restraining orders and i still won't quit
i hit rock bottom and then i fell in a hole
then i fell through the floor of that hole some more
i been missin for a year nobody's lookin
i got beat down and my shit tookin
i look ahead and all i see is more of the same
or this self inflicted bullet hole pouring my brain

i dream about cuttin heads off with a shovel
the dreams are gettin serious think i'm in trouble
i don't hold memory for more than hour
i'm tired as fuck and i'm drained of power
i ain't halfway there and i'm all outta time
i'm like a crushed light bulb, all outta shine
i been around the world but no place is home
i wanna see the other side when i face the chrome
i'm butt naked i been jackin off gettin drunk
it's my last hours alive, who gives a fuck it don't matter
i'm doing the shit in the garage
tryna make it easier for them to clean my head splaage
this bitch i loved i hope she finds me
still up in the chair with my thoughts behind me

i'm about to do it

can you hold for a second...

hello?